Sick of me
Sick of you
Sick of all
the things you do
All the abuse
All of the shame
I will, no longer,
take the blame
So pay close attention
To what I will say
All of this ends,
as of today
Show me some love, some passion, some bliss.
Just show me something so I know I exist.
I dont need much. Just a hug or a kiss.
I just need something to prove it gets better than this.
With every event that makes me sad
With all the shit that makes me mad
A wall is built with all the pain
Every brick, a walk down memory lane…..
Let it down is what they say
Don’t let it stay up another day
Open your mind, your heart, your soul
Give life a chance is what im told…..
Tear it down and make it last
Keep all of the bad in the past
As I do so its plain to see
It tumbles down on top of me…..
Little Miss Teardrops.
Crying all the time.
She cries over nothing.
At the drop of a dime.
No one really likes her.
She’s just too dumb to know.
We back her in a corner.
She has no place to go.
She’s begging and she’s pleading.
She keeps saying its not right.
We poke her and we push her.
And we try to start a fight.
Again the tears start rolling.
This time she’s filled with rage.
She looks at us with anger.
Like a tiger in a cage.
She’s screaming as she charges.
With her arms in front of her.
She grabs me and she pushes.
Then I end up on the floor.
I felt a real sharp pain.
An aching in my side.
She stabbed me with a knife.
And just like that I died.
I’m a different kind of victim.
Not the kind you read about.
I’m the one who caused the pain.
But she’s the winner there’s no doubt.
The moral here, my friends.
Is not to just be nice.
It’s to never be a bully.
Cuz you’ll ALWAYS pay the price.
STOP BULLYING
That rhythm I hear
in the distant night
brings a sense of fear.
Calmness falls
as tension rises
confusion starts to near.
Sounds so familiar
Ive heard it before
This cant possibly end well.
Its the cadence of many broken hearts
Singing goodbye and farewell.
Though the nights are dark
and I feel alone.
There is a light that shines
that sets a tone.
A feeling of comfort
that cant be explained.
A sense of support
that I feel through the pain.
I’ve never been alone
I realize this now.
You continue to watch
but I don’t know how.
You’ve been taken from me
when I needed you most.
I knew in that moment
things couldn’t get worse.
The only one
who was there for me.
The one who knew
how to set me free.
Was the one that was forced
to leave it all behind.
This hurt little girl
to which the world was unkind.
I’ve dealt with a lot
you would be so proud.
I’ve come a long way
I stand out in the crowd.
I am strong and more confident
than I have ever been.
I refuse to play victim
I demand to win.
Though I still carry scars
of my previous life.
I still find the strength
to get through the strife.
That light that shines
through the darkness I see.
I know it is you
That still takes care of me.
Rest in peace, My dear Angel
I miss you so much.
In the depths of my heart
I still feel your touch.
Love Always,
Your baby sister <3
Fuck me hard.
Have your way with me.
Make me cum.
This is my plea.
Bend me over.
Give me a spank.
Pull my hair.
Its you I thank.
Please don’t stop.
I’m almost there.
Just nibble here
and tickle there.
Yes, oh yes
How quickly you learn.
You lay down.
Now it’s your turn.
I wouldn’t change a thing,
So many people say.
I’d go through it again,
It made me who I am today.
I just cannot imagine
all my hurt and all my pain.
Being worth it done all over
cuz it’s driven me insane.
Sure, I’m strong and independent
I am loyal and quite blunt.
But I’m also really broken
and emotionally on a hunt.
On the hunt for something true.
Something different from what I know.
Something real and something pure,
that I want to hold and not let go.
As I sit here and I write this
and ponder all the things I’d say.
I wouldn’t change a thing
It made me who I am today.
I keep saying I’m not ok,
but no one listens.
I continue to search for the way,
through all my tears that glisten.
Feeling lost in a world of pain,
I stand here still.
Reaching for something to gain.
instead I’ll take this pill.
No troubles, no worries, no life,
that’s what will happen now.
No unnecessary strife,
No where, no when, no how.
This path just seems the best,
just close my eyes and fly.
I lay myself to rest,
as I wave my hand goodbye.
A quitter I am not,
Nor will i ever be.
I’ll give this life a shot,
and be all I can be.
My time is not yet here,
theres still so much to do.
I’ll fight with no more fear,
and know that I’ll come through.
I will be ok…..
Just let me lay,
In
the
water
still.
As the fire burns,
And
my
lungs
fill.
Let the moment rise,
In
which
I’m
free.
So that the light,
Is
what
I
see.
A sense of peace,
While
you
stare
and
weep.
An image so clear,
A
memory
you’ll
keep.
To bring you pain,
Was
not
my
will.
Just let me lay…………… In the water still.
Lucidly I Dream
of a love that seems so real.
Not beyond my reach
its something I can feel.
The smile on my face
and the sparkle in my eye.
Comes from the only one
that very special guy.
Don’t let this go away
let me look and let me see.
Feel the comfort and the warmth
this is where I want to be.
My heart begins to beat
my soul begins to gleam.
Reality starts to set
because Lucidly I Dream.
Traces being left behind
With every step I take.
The once upon a time I knew
No difference does it make.
This process that I’m starting now
To build a whole new me.
Is lengthy and a painful one
And thats just plain to see.
Learn to walk and start anew
They call it baby steps.
This brand new life I’m thankful for
No longer will I fret.
I’ll always be the damaged girl
I can’t forget my past.
But I will learn to live more free
And appreciate life at last.
An eerie feeling
I cannot explain.
This toxic blood
Running through my veins.
The realization
Things aren’t ok.
Let me run real fast
Let me runaway.
Run from these feelings
That scare me the most.
I must drain this blood
I must become a ghost.
Will it all disappear?
Can I rid this from me?
Its time I let go
I need to be free.
A quick slit of the wrist
Just a moment of pain.
The release of my past
Is what drove me insane.
I will leave so much behind
So, this just cannot be.
Instead I’ll reach out
And scream…..
“Somebody, HELP ME”
Many many moons ago
is what they always say.
Referring to the life they’ve lived
up until today.
I look back upon my past
remembering too far.
I cannot speak of many moons
instead I speak of scars.
Pain and hurt is what I’ve lived
from memory number one.
So many dark and dirty things
none of which I’ve done.
The healing process has begun
I’ll take it day by day.
I may not reference many moons
but, of triumph, I will someday.
Let me grip your heart;
Wrap my fingers around it and squeeze.
Till you can’t stand no more
And fall down to your knees.
As you feel yourself fading;
With your last breath let me know.
Because this is how I felt
When you said goodbye and let me go.
For the last time I’ve been hurt.
This won’t happen anymore.
Now I will leave you here alone
As I take my turn out the door.
Let this be a lesson to you
That the heart is not a game.
Be thankful I didn’t hurt you more
Because for this, I have no shame.
